A passionate linguist and writer dedicated to helping others improve their communication through creative storytelling.
One day at work a couple of years back, an alert popped up on my mobile device: my salary had come through. It was a fair amount for a student, so I proceeded with my usual payday ritual: I launched every retail application on my device. From Amazon to Zara, you name it. Within the space of an hour, I had parted with ÂŁ90 on clothes, decorative items and a completely useless heavy blanket that I never used.
A short while after, I went online again and purchased a blow dryer. I already had one, but thought another wouldn't be a problem. Then I added light strips and two shoes that werenât even my size. This wasnât new behaviour. In reality, Iâd been infamous for it since I started earning.
Whenever I felt anxious, exhausted or bored, I would doomscroll until it inevitably ended in an impulsive shopping spree. My justification was always: âOh well, itâs just ÂŁ5.â But ÂŁ5 turned into ÂŁ10, then ÂŁ20, and so on.
I was never entirely sure about the reason. Maybe it was due to my upbringing in a poor family, where weâd go months without purchasing new outfits or anything to decorate the house. So any moment I had some disposable income, there was always a subconscious desire for new and exciting things. Or possibly, and definitely more likely, I was just bad with money and succumbed easily to capitalismâs demands.
Eventually, I decided to try something new. Prior to acquiring anything, Iâd put it in my basket, wait 24 hours, then make a choice on whether to finalize the purchase. The best part of this technique was that it gave me space to reflect â an action Iâd never taken. For the first occasion since adulthood, I began questioning: âDo I actually need this? Is it within my budget?â More often than not, the answer was negative.
If I opened my shopping apps and discovered products sitting in my basket, Iâd clear them out and begin anew. Using this method, I stopped acquiring goods that I knew deep down I would never utilize. I once considered purchasing a trio of games, but after a waiting period before visiting the shop, I realised I never actually play tabletop games.
I also wanted to buy a disposable film camera for my first holiday to the coast. After waiting I remembered I had a smartphone, like most people, that has a perfectly good camera, and thus had no requirement to buy a dedicated camera.
It additionally signifies I am more discerning about the items I do buy, and I can at last review my financial records devoid of feeling shame or discomfort.
Of course, there have been occasions Iâve relapsed into old habits â it's human nature. The difference now is that I can recognise the signs early, especially when Iâm rushing into a transaction. Iâve come to understand boredom is a powerful trigger. Itâs probably the primary motivator of my reckless spending.
Modern culture exploits this idleness and our desire for instant satisfaction. Thatâs why, looking back, compelling myself to halt before purchasing has felt strangely liberating. Gaining command over my impulses and reaffirming that I donât need to expend my diligently earned money on unnecessary products feels as radical as it is straightforward.
A passionate linguist and writer dedicated to helping others improve their communication through creative storytelling.